Don't bite.
April 10th, 2008
I was wondering… how do you heal your heart when it hurts? You know, there’s only one who can really heal a hurting heart, and that’s God. They say ‘time heals’, but that’s not right – time does definitely help, but it doesn’t heal – God heals. You know how when the lifeguard is trying to save someone who is drowning, and the victim physically tries to fight off the lifeguard… well, I guess that’s the same as us – those of us with a hurting heart – feeling anger towards God – it’s like we’re trying to fight Him off. After all (we think to ourselves), this wouldn’t have happened if He had been here to begin with! And we know – deep down – that He was there with us – comforting us – as much as we let Him – it’s just that sometimes, we fight the very one who is there to comfort us – it’s like we’re biting the hand of the one who feeds us… If I find, at times, that I’m angry with God, I’m going to make a conscious effort not to bite His hand, but rather allow Him to comfort me as He so desires! Can’t you just hear Him… as he tries to help us into His loving lap of comfort, “Don’t bite my hand – I’m trying to heal your hurting heart my child”.
April 10th, 2008 at 7:14 pm
I think this is such an important concept – and I’d add that God uses alot of things/people to do the healing – for example – at the height of some of my grief over the death of Emma – I think God used music to help me heal – the words of some songs were like God would say to me – “Sharla listen – I’m right here”
OK – the anger part – some say you aren’t ‘supposed’ to get angry with God – I think if I’m angry with God – He can handle it – and in order for me to get through the anger – I have to be honest with Him about it – so although I never believed God caused the death of my child – I was angry because He certainly had the power to heal her – and I would ask Him – “why would you not want to save a baby?” -
But here’s the deal – He didn’t – and in the end – I have to make a choice – and I choose to believe my God is good and loving – and that there are just some things that I will never understand this side of Heaven
I do know this – God is the giver of genuine peace – and although I will never like – or forget – what happened to my child – I am at peace with it. I thank God for peace.
Peace to you Hatch……God’s peace be with you.